I’d be totally lying if I said I hadn’t been having a pity party for myself for a good month now. I have made excuse after excuse for myself, and while they may be valid, it’s time to snap out of it.
At the end of October, our dog got sick out of nowhere. It started with a large, hard lump in her neck and within days, she was diagnosed with septic cellulitis. We were told over and over again that they were “cautiously optimistic” about her recovery. With that being said, I started a blog post about how fortunate I was to have her home from the doggy hospital and started a daily journal to hopefully inspire and help other dog parents going through the same struggle.
I thought that doing this would be very helpful to others because, in my time of need, I tried to find other people’s stories and guidance. Well, I learned the hard way why there weren’t anyone else’s stories on this matter. Our ending wasn’t inspiring, it was heartbreaking, and I wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy. The thought of opening up the page where I had started this detailed journey of my poor girl, hurts me to my core and I haven’t been able to bring myself to do it. It may sound silly to those of you that aren’t “dog people”, but Bella was the rock of our family. She was our first born baby and lived to protect our furless children as we welcomed them into the world.
As I am typing this, I am crying but it’s time to not move on but not let it deter me from what I love and who I am. Ever since that horrific day, we put an offer on a house and listed ours for sale. I must also mention that we have been dealing with the most problematic kindergarten class I could have ever imagined for my son. Overwhelmed, doesn’t even begin to describe it.
I said I made excuses, or I guess you could say that they were made for me. But it’s time to suck it up and be grateful for what we still have and what we have to look forward to. I am a firm believer in the phrase “everything happens for a reason” because although it may be hard to see why at that moment; days, months, maybe years, you will find that reason.
While the last few months of 2017 have tested everyone in our family greatly, in two days we get to start over in a new year! I have never been one to have a resolution, but this year, my resolution is going to be getting myself back on track! I am going to try as hard as I can to not feel sorry for myself when things go wrong but to learn from them and MAKE SOMETHING GOOD HAPPEN. Only YOU can be responsible for your own happiness and success. Let’s get out there and own 2018!!